Even with a gentle and stable boyfriend… she still longs to be played with like trash, used as a convenient masturbation condom. (Ito Mayuki, CAWD-706)

Nobody wants to be treated gently. Being treated like trash is exactly what I'm doing. I'm of marriageable age… that's what people say. My friends are getting married one after another… I should calm down too… Until now, I've only dated trashy men. I've been played with, mocked. I feel empty. For the first time in my life, I met a gentle, earnest, and hardworking “ordinary boyfriend.” I've always longed for a stable boyfriend… like this. Finally, I'm dating an ordinary man, but there's no excitement, no satisfaction… I don't know what's wrong… I can't show my true self… But I desperately tell myself I can do this. But I can't. My cheating ex-boyfriend called me out, and although I could have refused, I went anyway. Maybe I was hoping to be hugged… his goal was my body… even knowing it was wrong, I still got excited. His brother is also a lecherous man, familiar with women. He reached out to me while his brother was sleeping. Brothers have different personalities and ways of treating women… I knew I couldn't be found out, but I got drunk anyway. Eventually, my brother found out about my affair, broke up with me, and then I had a relationship with a lecherous colleague at work. Secretly giving him oral sex in bars, having threesomes in the office late at night… being treated like a toy, replacing a masturbation condom, being treated like trash—just what I needed.